Post by Austria on Oct 18, 2011 10:27:34 GMT -6
[/b]I went to bed I was thinking about you
I ain't the same since I'm living without you[/i]
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We had to go our separate ways, all for the sake of obeying our boss' orders, and also for the welfare of our people.
This was the sole thought going through Roderich's mind in an attempt to comfort himself as he lay in bed that cold night. It wasn't working, though.
The big, wide, cold, empty bed.
Big, wide, cold, and empty without the other person who's supposed to be there occupying it.
He had divorced España earlier that day.
Said hurtful words that escaped him, more hurtful than they ever should have been.
His only intention was to drive him away further so that it would make the separation less painful. His only intention was to hurt him a bit, so that he'd hate him, and thus make the parting easier.
But he soon regretted that.
He had never been so hurt in his life ever since being separated from and making enemies with his former childhood friend, Swiss. And he never thought that the one who could hurt him this much… was himself.
He didn't mean any of those words. He didn't mean for any of it to come out as harsh and unfeeling as they did. He just wanted to drive a little wedge between the two of them, because forcing to divorce España even though he still loved him was something that he knew wasn't going to be easy at all. He wanted to make it a tad less painful for España. He didn't care about being hurt more, if it meant that it would hurt the other less.
But he knew he had gone too far.
He had hurt himself even more than he should have, and he knew he had hurt the other more than he intended, too.
But there was nothing to be done now. Words are the one thing that cannot be taken back once they are uttered.
He is never going to get over this.
Never.
Never, ever.
And he makes sure he won't ever forgive himself for it, either.
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All the memories are getting colder
All the things that I wanna do over
[/i][/center][/blockquote]All the memories are getting colder
All the things that I wanna do over
